Just to clear the air.
Honestly, I’m embarrassed that I have to do this at all. But apparently I’ve established myself as a heart-sleeve-toting douche. Lol. No, the recent cover of Marvin’s Room by Drake that I posted is not a personal attack on any individual.
Obviously, in light of recent events, the content of the song seems to coincide with whatever feelings I should have at the present time. Fair. But, simply, they don’t. Yes. I rewrote the lyrics. From an incredibly detached point of view. In fact, the only reason I did so was because the original lyrics were, in my eyes, not relatable. I don’t drink, etc etc. Yes, I’m contradicting myself in the way that I take the lyrics. But only because it was so drastically unrelatable; in fact, Garageband was armed to record already when I decided to rewrite the lyrics. And not towards any particular goal.
I guess I just feel like it’s a little sad that because people feel they know me “personally” and thus everything I write (apparently) has to do with my personal life. If you’re like that, then put yourself in the shoes of someone who has no idea I exist. Say you happened to stumble upon the video. Assume you enjoyed it (to whatever minimal extent you’d like to). From this point of view, the lyrics just seek to convey a new take on the song.
But since you “know” me, these lyrics then become (for whatever reason) literary daggers that (also for whatever reason) apparently need to be aimed at someone. But I’m not the one throwing them. It’s those people who feel I’m trying to achieve a personal goal by posting the song. And I’m not. If you don’t enjoy it at all, fine. That’s entirely possible. But to believe that I’m doing it out of spite is horrible.
Yes, we broke up after fourteen months together. But why should that mean I am spiteful? I learned more from her than from anything else I have done my entire life. Most of all, I learned how to enjoy being in love. Yes, we were in love. Though I am no longer in love with her, I still love her and I always will. She was one of my best friends and I pray every day for her heart and healing.
So when I hear things that directly challenge how I feel in a way that someone else might know how I feel better than I do. After seventeen years of life, I feel like I know myself pretty well.
Most of all, however, I apologize for any confusion the song may have caused. I’m the only one to blame for whatever people may think. But either way, thank you for the continued support. If you’re no longer a supporter, I thank you for your support up until now.
-Carlo Nathan
